I don’t know what this feeling is, but I hate it.

It should feel amazing, but I hate it.

It makes me feel happy, depressed, confused, and guilty all at once.

This feeling that creeps up on me without warning, at all hours of the day and night, whether I’m awake or asleep.

It transcends all thoughts and defies all descriptions.

It will reach me with 100% certainty. It has random triggers. It can’t be stopped.

Sometimes I have dreams (if they’re even dreams, they always feel real) that make me feel like I’m close to escaping it or resolving it, but it always returns with a vengeance.

I wonder if you experience this too.

I wonder if they’re not actually dreams, but realities that we are living at the same time.

I wonder if you also get this feeling, that sometime and somewhere, maybe not even in this life, or on this plane of existence, we were together, and we saved the universe.